Night on Call

Well, here I am, another night in the hospital. I decided to plan ahead and took about an hour nap, maybe slightly longer, before coming to work at 7pm, and took a 100mg caffeine tablet. Just took my second 100mg tablet now, at 12:45am. I was anticipating it being a nonstop night, however everything is all organized now, did a vaginal delivery, my notes, etc. and now... just waiting for admits or for all hell to break loose. This is just a weekend call though, 7pm to 11am the next day (at most). OB and Pediatrics. This past week and this coming week I am on surgery. It's been a nice change of pace, and getting home at a more reasonable hour as well. My attending looks and sounds exactly like Hugh Laurie on House. It's rather uncanny. One of his patients even pulled me aside and asked, "Does Dr. so-and-so look like Dr. House to you?" I don't know if it's surgeons in general, but he also has a lot of interesting stories. My previous surgery rotations were also filled with story telling. I wonder if it's because sewing, cutting, spreading, etc. isn't super cerebral and you can just chat while doing it. I had my in-training exam last week - I kinda just rushed through it... I know I probably should have taken it more seriously but...meh. Just wasn't in the mood, and at this point I feel like either I know it or I don't. Well, next weekend I get both days off, yay! I'll be driving over to my parents for my dad and sister's birthday - should be fun! Anyhow... guess I'll go back to studying random stuff... what to study, what to study...

Medicine and ICU

Phew, it's been exhausting!  I had a month on internal medicine service where basically every day for 12-15 hours I'd be at the hospital managing a panel of patients and admitting new ones from the emergency department.  It was rough, and there was plenty of weekend hours put in as well.  I had an easier time of it compared to some of my colleagues because, again, I'm pretty comfortable with electronic medical records and working with computers in general.  I didn't have any real time to do readings, however, so now that I'm on ICU which is more about learning than having any intense responsibility for patients, I'm finally able to catch up on all the stuff I wanted to review.

For example, while on medicine service I saw at least 3 cases of "acute pancreatitis," with two legit cases and one (maybe more) case of not-so-legit pancreatitis.  I finally had time to go to the American Gastroenterological Association website and find their guidelines for acute pancreatitis and read up on the latest "word" from the experts.  We definitely weren't managing the patients ideally, we were managing them fine but not particularly ideally.  That's one of the challenges in medicine is that it's a constantly evolving field and you have to stay super up to date on the latest treatment protocols and what the studies are saying.  We even have a website that is essentially a wikipedia for physicians, called "UpToDate" - the name says it all, it's where doctors go to stay up to date on information.  However, UpToDate isn't always the best organized website and I don't particularly like how it's structured, plus the articles aren't necessarily peer reviewed by experts in the field based on only the best, most solid, studies.  That's where specialty society guidelines come into the picture.

In ICU, we actually had a pretty 'exciting' semi-TV moment of emergency patient care - an older woman currently on a ventilator suddenly started having blood come up her nasogastric tube, so essentially she suddenly developed bleeding and her vital signs showed she was in distress.  The rooms in ICU should be bigger than they are, and this one felt particularly cramped.  The crash-cart was between the end of the bed and the opposite wall, and I was on the inside half of the room and my attending (a very intelligent younger doctor who looks more like a college student than a seasoned ICU doctor) literally ran over the bed to get to my side so we could insert a chest tube - he didn't have a gown on (just a white coat with the sleeves rolled up to his elbows) and ended up getting sprayed with some of the fluid when the tube was in - he had eye guards in place at least (aka glasses).  Then we immediately pulled from the other cart a fiber optic cable to see where the bleeding was coming from and it was essentially seeping from every surface in her lungs - diffuse alveolar hemorrhage as they call it.  No source to suture, cauterize, or slap a bandage on - just have to keep giving her suction, oxygen, and start steroids.  She had developed a chronic lung condition over the past year and it was not going well.

Heroics aside, ICU can be a very difficult place.  We had a young girl come in and die within hours, and it shook the ICU physicians and staff for the next several days, and it made news in the community.  It's not part of the plan for young, otherwise healthy people to suddenly die of overwhelming bacterial sepsis, but it happens and there's very little you can do to stop it.  Also, one of my patients who I had been managing a week prior on the normal hospital floors for a pneumonia and fluid in her lungs, a very sweet older woman with mild Alzheimer's dementia, ended up choking on her morning breakfast and ended up in the ICU on a ventilator, likely with brain damage from lack of oxygen.  She had been on a dysphagia diet, but hadn't been officially evaluated for her swallow by a speech therapist - her eating challenge wasn't obviously apparent, it was more that she would eat too fast and choke slightly on her food rather than any physical deficit.  I hadn't seen her since, and she was probably going to be discharged from the hospital that day or the next to a rehab facility and then an assisted living home.  I don't know if it would have made a difference to have that swallow evaluation or not, part of me thinks it would have gotten her out of the hospital, home, and then maybe a little longer in this world, but on the other hand, it may have only been a matter of time before something like that happened.  If she'd been switched to a liquid only diet, would it have changed anything, or would she have developed an aspiration pneumonia later and ended up in ICU in a month anyway?  She died that night - no code was called, so it's likely the neurologic findings were dismal and the family agreed to withdraw life support.

On the more positive side of things, I've been appreciating more how much patients like seeing their doctor in the hospital, even if it's a resident physician.  It's still hard for me to see myself as a REAL doctor, but we are making decisions for the patients and know them better than the attendings.  We check on them two or more times a day, not including all the calls to the nurses, reading up on previous visit notes, calling their physicians and specialists, and checking and ordering labs and radiographs, which patients don't get to see.  After I moved to ICU service, I went back and checked on one of my other patients from medicine a few times, as she was an especially complicated case, and helped the new team manage her discharge a bit.  She was really appreciative that I was still coming and managing her - she had had a somewhat 'flat' affect and wasn't all that talkative or cheerful so I wasn't sure initially if she even liked seeing me, but she made it clear later that she was glad I was still involved in her care.  Another patient I had discharged a couple weeks ago, a young person who had gotten frustrated several times while in the hospital about being kept there for treatment and had landed himself there by some fault of his own, came back today to get some paperwork filled out and actually said of the doctors who were coming to see him he liked me the most and was glad to see me.  I was his regular doctor, and when people are in pain and are grumpy it's hard to tell if they're mad at you or if they think you should be doing something that you're not doing.  I'm glad to know that even the patients that I think are not satisfied with their care do actually appreciate the work we do.

In another example of networking and working as a team, I talked to a nurse who had semi-challenged me on a medication decision.  Long story short, I thanked her for voicing her concerns, because after the fact I went and re-examined the data behind the study that a senior resident had very emphatically told me was going to be the new standard of care, and decided that the risks do not outweigh the benefits.  Initially she may have thought I was blowing her off because I told her my justifications for wanting to prescribe the medicine which, don't worry folks, never ended up getting taken by the patient because he felt like refusing meds and even if he had gotten that one dose before I discontinued it, it's the kind of medication that takes time to build up to a therapeutic level.  I didn't HAVE to talk to her about it, as it wasn't really an issue, but I elected to for a number of reasons.

First, it's important for nurses to feel respected and not marginalized in a very hierarchical system where doctors are traditionally seen as their opponents, not partners.  We rely on them for patient care and we want them on our side and voicing concerns, when legitimate.

Second, nurses talk - if she thought I had blown off her concerns, she probably would have gone complaining to all the other nurses that I'm a bad doctor and endangering a patient, or that I'm one of "those doctors who think they are better than nurses," and I have to work here for the next three years.

Third, if nurses think their patients are in danger and that physicians aren't listening to their concerns, they will start doing things on their own - which in rare cases does help patients, and in many other cases doesn't, like times when nurses think a doctor has prescribed too high an insulin dose, pretend or abstain from giving it to the patient, and in the morning the patient has blood glucose > 300.

Fourth, good karma.

Well, at the end of this week, I'm free for two weeks to do whatever - my first vacation of intern year.  When I get back I get to jump into OB/GYN... Not looking forward to it very much.  On the plus side, I got my call schedule for next month and I won't have to do a weekend shift for the first two weekends, which is great since on the first weekend there is a Cardiovascular Symposium I'd really like to attend!  I've got a bunch of nice stuff planned for my vacation, and can't wait to get started, but I'm also really liking the pace and learning opportunities in ICU.  Having an attending who likes discussing the latest care guidelines and is passionate about evidence-based medicine is always very invigorating - it's the most academic we get, as clinicians.  Time to go read more stuff!

First Week of Residency Year 1

Well, I've had about a week of being a resident - I have to say, parking in "Doctor's Only" spots, getting all the free cafeteria food I want, introducing myself as a Doctor so-and-so, it's been pretty great!  It's taking a little getting used to, but it's fun!  I'm finally having a part in patient care and I think the confidence that comes from having decent decision making skills is making me better with my patient interactions.  Also, I have electronic medical records down almost like a second language after only a day or two.  I haven't used this system before, but I've always been good with computers so...after two years of gritting my teeth while watching my attendings attempt to chart patient visits, finally I am the one doing that!  

I've started out with clinic and homeless medicine - which is very interesting and it's a pretty easy way to start out.  The hours aren't that long and I get to do a lot of reading and videos.  I like that I get noon conferences - kind of a daily lecture on random stuff.  Also the commute from my place is less than 15 minutes no matter where I have to go so far!  For emergency, which I start next week, it gets a little more tricky - I might end up driving 30 minutes each way.  My first call is this weekend, luckily it's 7pm to 7am, starting on Saturday, so I get to sleep in and get both days to hang out and do stuff.  

Pretty much all moved in up here - our place is all settled, wedding and honeymoon are all done for now, time to get back to work...  I'm trying to start out with good habits - always taking care of things on time, staying organized, you know.  The things everyone says they'll do but usually don't do.  Well, I'm hoping to do them!  Anyhow, time to enjoy my evening... after a long day running around trying to keep a bunch of things straight in my head...

As a PS:  I keep seeing emails from recent medical graduates, international, caribbean and domestic, all sending us their applications hoping we've had a vacancy or to get started for the next round of residency applications.  All I can say is I am sooooo thankful to be done with that and finally I can stay put for three years and get paid money!  MONEY!  It's not much but it's something!  

Interviews: Done

Well, all is complete.  Finished all my interviews, am one week into vacation, and it has been a busy vacation indeed!  After getting my thank you notes all figured out, had a weekend in Monterey to take care of wedding vendor business (Florist, Cake, and Hair/Makeup).  We also have a guest for the month, and another guest coming next week.  It's nice to be busy with only fun things.  Ordered the Save-the-Dates, got the guest list finalized... just riding out the end of the month.  Things are pretty much going awesome, and I feel very confident that I will match at my top choice, and if not then my second choice, both in Sacramento.  I doubt Davis will rank me particularly high, and after that one then Redding and Modesto are perfectly feasible options.  

Not too sure what else to update - I feel very fortunate compared to some of my classmates.  I know what I want, I'm competitive in the field that I want, I'm compatible with the field I want...  Compared to others who don't know what they want or aren't competitive for what they think they want.  I'll probably hold off on any more updates to this blog until I start my Neurology rotation in January, and then the Emergency Department rotation mid-January.

Two Interviews Left...

Well, two more days of GI left, and two interviews left.  I decided to cancel my Reno interview.  I've gotten good enough vibes from three of my top four programs, and two of my backup programs, that I don't really want to risk driving my two-wheel drive car into Reno in January when it would be at the bottom of my rank list anyway.  I am almost tempted to cancel the next two interviews, because I'm getting tired of interviews, the novelty has worn off, and these last two places are also at the bottom of my list.  However, one of the interviews is Thursday, and the next one is a week from Thursday.  They are coming up so soon that I might as well just do them.  

Currently on my GI rotation - mostly just trying to get through it.  I'm already tired of seeing colonoscopies.  They're interesting enough, but ... pretty brutal to watch and most of them are very routine.  Nice preceptor, very glad I'm only spending two weeks doing this.  Really more like one week considering the Thanksgiving vacation and my two interview days.  After this, it's a month off!

On another note, got my wedding dress ordered, got my car repaired (one more expensive repair coming up but I'll do that after I get my next loan disbursement), and have all of December off during which I get to visit my maid of honor in Seattle, have two friends stay over, and celebrate two Christmases.  Oh yeah, and my Birthday.  The guy at the Pinkberry Frozen Yogurt place today guessed that I was turning twenty - off by about 6 years.  Glad I still pass for a college kid in a college town.  I would think it would be even more obvious when you're surrounded by people who actually are younger than you.  Also going down to Monterey soon for a few days to check out wedding venues, and next year Mom's taking us to Hawaii for a few days.  All-in-all, 4th year is winding down to be pretty good, and I feel like when you really set your mind to something, anything can happen...

Probably because today's interview felt like it went really well.  Maybe I was just overconfident or over-comfortable  but I feel like I got really good vibes from them.  Like Kit always says, "Be nice to the administrative people, because they make a big difference and are usually unappreciated."  Very true.  When I did my sub-internship at this place (my number one choice for residency), I tended to go through the back entrance since the front included the waiting room.  The back entrance I had to ring the bell every day and they were always smiling and very happy to get up and open the door for me - I even apologized most of the time, saying I wish there were some easier ways to get through, and started using the other door after a while.  I always chatted with them, smiled a lot, showed my appreciation.  Today I feel like they not only remembered and liked me from before, but I felt like they tried to put the spotlight more on me a few times, and I feel like they even might have talked a little to the program director.  They definitely made an effort to remind her that I had done a sub-internship at the site, and when she came back while I was the only one sitting in the room (others had gone to their scheduled interviews, I was on a scheduled "break") she said she had looked over my application just then and talked to me in a kind of informal interview.  Just the level of comfort from knowing the facility and all the residents was really encouraging and confidence boosting.  

Also, when they're saying to the interview group "We allowed to tell you that you're a shoo-in for the program," I couldn't help but feel like they were half-directing it at me.  I don't know.  They aren't allowed to tell us this stuff because if they do, then students get the wrong idea, and cancel their other interviews and put all their eggs in one basket when there are no guarantees that the program plans to follow through.  It's all part of the game I suppose.  

On another note, we toured the Davis maternity facilities and when I graduate, it would be pretty sweet to deliver my first baby there.  They have one of the lowest C-section rates in the country, have facilities to allow you to be in a pool for labor or for water birth deliveries... it looks pretty dang awesome.  You can also connect your music player up to the sound system in the rooms.  I have 4 years or so to figure it out, so we shall see.  But I've got my eyes set on that location - not to mention it's only 10 minutes from where I live now.  That would be pretty awesome.

Sub Internship - Week 3

Well, I know I haven't been updating much - it's been busy.  A lot of fun stuff going on - seeing all kinds of patients, getting to know the residents and faculty... it's really enjoyable.  I had almost forgotten how much I enjoyed family medicine - there are so many things you get to do in family medicine that you can't do in other fields of medicine.  A day could involve diagnosing a patient with anorexia, managing a patient with depression, removing a sebaceous cyst, performing maneuvers to treat a patient's vertigo, putting a cast on a 10 year old boy, identifying a rash and prescribing antibiotics to prevent future heart complications, managing a patient with hypertension + diabetes + chronic kidney disease + depression + foot ulcers + macular degeneration, managing a patient with sinusitis, counseling a patient on weight loss, removing an ingrown toenail, identifying a urinary tract infection... and so on.

Essentially any medical problem a patient has, they go to you first.  So much fun.  I'm at the point where I know enough that sometimes it feels like I really have the answers.  There have been many encounters that would be blog-worthy in these past weeks, I just don't know where to start.  A woman at 37 weeks gestation who has gestational diabetes, who also just developed symptomatic gallstones, who has an OB/GYN physician who seems indifferent to the fact her pregnancy is one problem away from becoming an emergency surgery?  Breaking the news to a young skinny girl that she has dieted to the point that she isn't having periods and needs to gain more weight when that's the last thing she wants?  A man with crippling chronic pain from an accident years ago who is allergic to morphine?  

The residents have been great, the attendings have all been great, I feel like I fit in really well.  I love the area, the city, our new place.  I really hope I get into this program.  

Currently my tally is 8 interviews scheduled out of 11 programs I applied to.  I think I'll get an interview with Davis, and I am still hoping for at least one more interview offer.  I'm not holding my breath for one of the programs.  I'm kind of looking forward to interviews as well - two places are covering my lodging.  One of them is letting me stay with a resident, and another is paying for my hotel room.  Tomorrow hopefully I can relax a bit.  I need to get back on my exercise regimen but I strained my calf muscle two weeks ago and it still hurts really bad and I don't want to be impatient and hurt it even more.  After next week I start Pediatric Psychiatry - should be nice.

COMLEX PE

Well, today I had the COMLEX PE exam - it's a pass/fail exam where you have to have 12 standardized patient visits and then do a write-up.  You have 14 minutes to see the patient, and 9 minutes to do the write-up.  For DOs it is only offered on the east coast in Pennsylvania, so of course, off to Pennsylvania I had to go.  So jetlagged...  Anyhow, things were starting out fine, ironed my white coat, did some spot cleaning, looked great.  Then when I put it on after carrying it over one arm to the test center, I realize I got blood on it somehow - I nicked my knuckle somehow.  So I had to cover it up with something, first I just had clear tape, next I had an actual white paper cover, which was better.  Hopefully it won't count against me too much in the exam - I think it'll all average out okay, but it was really disappointing.  

As far as the patient encounters, they all went about as expected - and I was surprised that I never really found myself running out of time for either the visit or the write-up.  I feel like I always got through it, was able to ask them if they had any questions or concerns or if I can help them with anything else, etc.  Super exhausted though.  Treated myself to a nice dinner, and now just debating how much sleep I want to try to get before my 6am flight.  This time we get to change flights in Chicago, but at least the second leg will have Wi-Fi, so I won't be as bored out of my mind as I was for the first flight.  My stomach has felt funky the whole time I've been here, so I'm looking forward to getting back to my normal food.

Another bummer today was I got an email saying I didn't get a rotation spot at one of the programs I wanted to do a sub-Internship at.  It sucks that they took so long to figure that out because now I can't really make any other arrangements - I have to just scrounge for some other rotation.  Hopefully our department at school will be working through rotation requests a lot faster now that they got some extra people to take care of student health.  

As far as Psychiatry, it went well overall.  The preceptor was great, the patients were interesting, and the hours were very reasonable.  I was not too happy that I had to cut a lot of the days out because of mandatory lectures at school and this trip to take the exam, but at least I made the most of my time there.  The end-of-rotation exam is Friday and then I'm on vacation for two weeks.  Got some nice activities queued up, and I need to start seriously planning my wedding.  

Inpatient Medicine - Finally

Well, I have finally started my inpatient medicine internal medicine rotation at a teaching hospital.  The first day was pretty exciting - we rounded on patients, I got to know my team, we hung out in the emergency department and admitted people, ran to catch a code blue, etc.  It had a very "Scrubs in India" feeling to it because the residents and the attending are all from India (except one woman from Bosnia?).  They are nice, but one challenge is they have very thick accents and are kind of clique-y.  One of them in particular has a very thick accent that I have a lot of trouble understanding, and I know he has trouble enunciating so I feel a little bad asking him to repeat himself all the time.  They all talk softly too, mumbling, so it is hard to tell what they are discussing unless I am super close.  

It's gotten a bit more negative as time goes on - first day I thought things were going to be good: I would follow a patient, the attending told me to pick a patient and a topic to research, and then I'd discuss it with them and present the patient.  My first day I wanted to follow a patient with COPD, but then she was going to be transferred to ICU where we don't really round or follow patients.  This was after I had already done a writeup and was preparing on that topic.  It was then suggested that I follow another patient - so I picked a man with liver cirrhosis and varices.  So that's two writeups and two topics I needed to look over that night, on the off-chance we went to the ICU.  When I finally try to present the next day, the attending corrects me on the order in which I was giving information, the standard form that were taught and how I've been doing it over the last year with no complaints from any of my preceptors.  After I do half a presentation,  then the resident I was working with filled in the physical exam portion (which was essentially what I would have said, minus two small findings), and another resident presented the next patient.  That person did the EXACT format of presentation that I did, but of course without being called on it.

To make things a bit worse, today the resident who has a thick accent wanted me to look up some information - how a medicine is connected to a condition.  I figured it was a "this is a good topic to know, look it up and we'll discuss it" type task, similar to what attendings have done in the past, and he didn't give me any indication it was otherwise.  After a 30 minute search on my usual online textbooks, all reputable sources like Harrison's and Current Medical Dx and Tx, I couldn't find anything linking the two.  I come back, told them what I found out about the topic and medication, and they tell me to just google it or search on pubmed.  I got pretty annoyed because I didn't know he was just scouting possibilities for research projects and there WASN'T an established link between the two things.  I go back to pubmed, which they spelled out to me as if I had no clue what it was even though I've used it a million times, and I still couldn't find a single article linking the two conditions.  Everything was consistent with what I had previously reported.  

Ultimately I found an article about use for the medication in the condition in general (which I had already described) and there was another medication he was curious about so I found a couple token articles about that, but I left in a rather sour mood after having to do almost 2 hours of busywork for no real payoff and reviewing an esoteric topic that I already knew.  

The topic I'm reading up on for the attending currently, bacterial meningitis, was something I read through yesterday - I must have read through 3 different full-length UpToDate articles, and where I thought there were holes in my knowledge I continued to investigate.  Wrote everything out, went and checked out the pertinent sections in my review books, and today he still wanted to give me more time because he said UpToDate isn't the best source and kept asking about random textbooks that they used back in India.  At least he approves of Harrison's and CMDT, but I read over the meningitis information in those texts, and it was verbatim what I found in the UTD articles, and actually was less detailed.  I understand that UTD is a quick reference and half the articles are short and to the point, but I went for the full-length meaty articles.  

Long story short: Feels like they underestimate how much I know without even testing me, or letting me go on when I try to engage in a discussion.  

Plus sides: There is night call twice a week, 8pm to 8am, and then morning rounds, usually get off around 11am the next day - meaning I get to sleep in the day before, study, eat at home, and then spend the night in the hospital, knowing I have the entire next day off.  Essentially reduces my number of shifts by two.  I am not sure if I have weekend duty, but if I can get by with just 3 shifts per week, I'll be pretty stoked.  

As far as rotations go, I got sub-internship at the program I plan to rank #1 - the guy who called was I think a rank higher than the lady who actually does the coordinating and he went over my application.  He commended my USMLE Step 1 score and grades, and liked my personal statement - tried to connect a bit with some things he's done as well.  It almost felt like an interview - which, in a sense, it was, but it felt almost like a residency-screening interview.  I'll assume that his positive feedback about my application indicates I have a good chance of getting an interview for the residency program (provided I don't screw up my boards and rotations between now and then).  

Called a few more places today, starting to get a few more things on board - I'm going to see about doing some easy rotations while studying for my Step 2's so that I can have more vacation left over for a potential trip to Europe.  I think I have ER and Surgery in the bag, and ICU and a Medicine Subspecialties should be easy enough to arrange since Touro has a few exclusive arrangements.  Still waiting on Davis to get back to me, but I'm not really holding my breath too much for them.  Also waiting on another program out there, but they just updated me that they're looking over the application and I should hear from them any day now.

Perhaps time to take a nap and then read up on more meningitis and do some practice questions.......

Internal Medicine - first 2 weeks

Internal medicine for the first four weeks is to be outpatient, so I am essentially back in Family Medicine.  The only difference is we see a lot more older patients, and instead of being with one doctor for four weeks and another for four weeks, I am with a total of 4 or 5 different doctors, and usually two different ones in a single day - one for the morning and one for the afternoon.  It's a challenge getting used to what they expect in terms of presentations and their personalities - harder to get a good rhythm going, so it feels more chaotic and stressful.  Also with all the older patients that I see, I can't help but feel a little depressed thinking of myself one day being where they are with lost loved ones, being unable to get up and around, unable to hear, or demented.  Two days a week I work with a doctor or a nurse who each goes to skilled nursing facilities.  I see a lot of demented people there, who are so far gone they can only half-feed themselves, smack their lips, and don't recognize their family members - who wish they would hurry up and die because they are quickly destroying their life savings.  I asked and you are able to stipulate in your advanced directive that if you are unable to recognize family members or have an acceptable quality of life for someone of your age and physical condition (not mental) that you give permission to discontinue all medications, including ones that were being given prior to mental deterioration.  The catch with dementia is you can't stop any treatments once you've started, but you can abstain from starting treatments.  So a patient with palliative care lung cancer patient starts bleeding per rectum, you don't have to go looking for colon cancer, you can just keep doing what you're doing and give narcotics.  It's a tragedy so many families are trapped watching the husk of someone they once loved deteriorate further and drain their finances that could put their grandkids through college, or help pay off debts.

In other news, I've been adhering to a stricter study schedule and trying to make sure to get my quota done each day - if I don't, it means no fun time.  Last week it definitely cut into my fun time, so I have to become a faster reader...  I also have to give a presentation next week, so this coming weekend will probably be spent working on that.  Also been busy trying to get rotations set up for fourth year.  Soon I'll need to call another place in Sacramento, but hopefully after I hear about two other sites because I don't want to be stuck without a rotation...  So much stress.  Wish I could just be done with medschool and onto residency.

Long Day of Surgery

Well, another surgery day is at an end. I was first-assist for a cholecystectomy and a thoracotomy plus decortication. The cholecystectomy was fine, went about as expected - and I sutured up two of the short incisions and they looked quite nice. The thoracotomy is where it starts getting interesting - it was on this 22 year old obese autistic individual, very obese. We had to go through 4 or 5 inches of fat to get to his ribcage where we had previously inserted a chest tube to drain pleural effusion. The guy had a really bad pneumonia infection and it had caused empyema, so we needed to go in, break a rib, spread his rib cage a bit, and detach as much of the pus-covered fibrinous exudate as we could - it was really remarkable how much there was. Imagine peeling really glued on labels off a glass beer bottle, except instead of glass it's lung tissue and the label is dense clotted blood, pus, exudate, and fibrin material. It took a total of 2 hours to do the surgery.

After that I observed a cholecystectomy, but this was kind of an odd case because the woman had a standalone piece of liver, about 2 inches by 1 inch by 0.5 inches, living by itself on her gallbladder. It was really weird, it had it's own blood supply and everything. At any rate, same procedure took place - removed the gallbladder along with that tiny chunk of free-living liver, and stitched the woman up. She took a half hour to come out of anesthesia and even then she was too weak to do much so they decided to intubate and let her sleep and recover overnight.

In other news, my car needed to be repaired, battery/alternator trouble and the cost is gonna be about $2,000 - really painful to think about. At least I have loan money for this sort of thing - unfortunately they still haven't disbursed the majority of my loan money because there is some problem with my stafford loans over at the main university headquarters on the east coast and they are waiting to hear back from them. If I don't hear anything tomorrow, I'll bug them again.

Also, I contacted an infectious disease specialist who works with AIDS patients and he told me to email him so we could set up the rotation - I haven't heard back yet, but hopefully tonight or tomorrow he will respond and I'll know if/when my infectious disease rotation will be. I'd really like to do that, we shall see.

Starting the Last Week

Well, after a nice weekend with friends, boyfriend and family, time to get back to work. Today I helped drain a cyst, and dress a wound, as well as finishing up the suturing on a VAP placement. It worked out pretty well, the suturing looked good, and the doctor seemed to be in a decent mood. Got out at a decent time, but ended up having to take the car into the shop. I have a rental at the moment, which is kind of a hassle, but at least it's getting stuff fixed and I'm getting a detail, so it should be nice and pretty when it gets back.

Later this week there are a few other surgeries, nothing particularly radical, but it looks like a nice load, nothing too stressful. On Thursday a mutual friend is coming to stay with me and my boyfriend for a bit and there should be some nice social fun going on this coming weekend. Next week on Monday I start my Family Medicine rotation at Kaiser Permanente - here's hoping it works out all right.

One more week to go...

One more week until I take COMLEX, going to have to step up and really study. Took a break the last day or two, just been stressed out. Plus after I take the test it is off to Oregon, then the day after I get back it's time to jump into the general surgery rotation and patient interviews and scrubbing-in and all that fun stuff. I've gotten my badges for the two hospitals I'll be at for now, and have a surgery rotations book to review while I'm in Oregon. It's getting really hot now in the bay area, so it's getting harder to focus. Must stay strong! Time to do some practice questions...

Mostly done with 2nd year

Finished all our normal curriculum classes - feels like it's time for a break but alas, must start really hankering down on preparing for boards. I moved my board exams to later, since I will be doing a vacation first, so I have a bit more time but my prep program has a live lecture series that begins at the end of May so I need to get cracking!

As far as the last few weeks of school, they went by rather quickly, with lots of studying and crossing fingers that I wouldn't have to re-mediate anything. It's getting warmer, so perhaps I can take a break to collect insects again soon, but a medical career sure does eat up your time. I'm also trying to adopt a healthier lifestyle, incorporating more exercise and diet changes. We'll see how long that lasts.

Got back from Monterey recently, went for a week-long vacation with most of the family - I say most because my dad recently had a hernia repair complication and had to stay home to recover from that. Funny how you learn things in practical settings that they don't really discuss in medschool - like how to approach a patient who comes in with an internal bleed. Solution? If their H&H doesn't drop too low, and if the bleeding stops on its own, even with tons of swelling, you can expect the body to resorb a certain amount, and it is usually less risky than surgically draining the fluid or going in to repair a small bleed.

On another note, I've discovered I have a very particular allergy, to two products produced by the Estee Lauder parent company (Brands are Origins and Clinique). The brands are significantly different and the two moisturizers I used only share a handful of ingredients - I've narrowed it down to butyloctyl salicylate (but this is common in a lot of sunscreens that I think I have been exposed to before) and micrococcus lysate (an ocean-microbe's dissolving organ enzyme). My money is on the micrococcus lysate, because it is used in very few products and is relatively new on the market (2009) so I am curious to see if that's what it is. There is one more product out there that I know of that contains the micrococcus lysate but not the other compound, so if i test that on some skin it should produce a reaction if I have the right compound isolated. Kinda fun to experiment on oneself, but I kinda want my face and neck to stop being all inflamed and itchy. And my test arm.

Spring Semester and Boards

Well, just finished the 3rd week of Spring Semester - this unit is gastrointestinal, endocrine, reproductive, and dermatology - or GERD. Just signed up for our "Project Prepare" time slots, where we get to practice breast, prostate, and vaginal exams on hired "actors". We always kind of wonder what kind of people choose to do this sort of work, but hey, in this economy, why wouldn't they?

At any rate, the first week we covered mostly dermatology, and the second and third weeks have been focused on the endocrine system (so the pituitary, adrenal glands, pancreas, etc.). I am also getting geared up with my boards review program. I am taking Boards Bootcamp, where we get video lectures, as well as a study plan in the mean time. Near the end of the program we attend some live lectures locally. We got a super discount because at first we committed to the comprehensive program which was supposed to have weekly live lectures and cost 1700 or so, but we were going to get it for about 1300, then when we didn't get the minimum number of students to sign up, they upgraded those who did sign up to the elite program which normally costs 2200 (but we still only paid 1300). It's a lot to work on, but frankly I enjoy studying for boards more than Touro material - it just feels like it's better organized and more relevant. Anyway, I devote my Sundays to studying Boards material - works out well because my boyfriend works essentially all day on Sunday, and Monday-Thursday, so I don't feel like I'm neglecting him too much.

I have been managing to have a little fun on the side - spending time with my boyfriend, hosting a New Year's Party, heading out to a brewery here and there, a movie or two, played nearly all the way through Fallout: New Vegas. Even trying my hand at some new dinner recipes. Now I just have to re-incorporate an exercise regimen...

Oh, I also got all two of my wisdom teeth out a couple days ago - first time going under anesthesia. But there was barely any after-effect and I'm recovering quite quickly. It sucks not being able to eat much solid food, but because I only had wisdom teeth on my left side, I can still chew a little bit on my right without disturbing my stitches. The whole procedure was only about 25 minutes, I was surprised.

Fourth Week In...

Posting has been lacking due to the insane amount of stuff I have been up to - being a second year is no simple matter. Nor is moving. Anyhow, I am finally settled in the new place - which has a gorgeous view and is pretty darn spacious and awesome - because it is "technically" within Vallejo's city limits, it makes the property values a lot lower, so the rent is surprisingly affordable.

The start of this year has been centered on Neurohistology, Psychiatry, Cranial OMM stuff, and learning how to do more focused Physical Exams. We will be also doing an extra clinical experience at a retirement home to learn more about geriatrics and the problems that face that particular demographic. Neurophysiology is very detailed, so that has been taking up most of my time. Money is also super tight. However, our living area is great, my friends are close enough for us to visit regularly and for us to host things every so often, and school is closer, and I have a lot of time to study in the evenings. Not to mention the occasional social events like LAN parties or themed parties. Still have time to do a half-hour or hour of games a day - I need a nice way to de-stress, and the latest one, plants vs zombies, can be played with just a mouse, leaving my other hand free.

Another Hurdle

Well, just finished a pseudo-midterm - feels like I've been doing nothing but study lately - and in my spare time, computer games. I really need to get out more and exercise... Feels like I'm trying to do a million things at once, but I guess that's nothing all that new. I can't believe I'm almost done with my first year of medical school. It's rather intimidating because sometimes I feel like I've learned a lot, and other times I feel like I haven't learned anything. Now with the midterm done, I plan to just relax as much as humanly possible between now and Saturday night - Saturday we have a semi-dance thing on campus, it's a fundraiser for the group that is going abroad to Ethiopia and Tanzania. Unfortunately they're more established, better organized, and have the Global Health program director in charge of their group, so they have been putting on a lot more events than my group (Bolivia) and the Taiwan and Israel group.

The latest stuff we have been studying is all the respiratory illnesses - mostly those that cause pneumonia, bronchitis, that sort of thing. There was a section on pediatric illnesses and upper respiratory problems, which was okay. I'm not a fan of babies in general, and learning about the millions of ways that babies can turn out wrong frustrates me, since there are no laws permitting parents to relinquish their responsibilities for an incredibly unfit offspring. Definitely a controversial view, which as far as I'm concerned will only apply to myself and my future offspring, not the patients for whom I care (so don't worry), but human societies have practiced infanticide since before they were even humans - all animals practice infanticide if they do not have the resources or the animal is too unfit to survive and care for itself. It seems a crime to force parents to spend say, 5 years of their lives caring for a child that is 99.99% doomed to die - that's 5 years in which the child will be suffering, becoming progressively more mentally retarded, and slowly wasting away until its inevitable demise. It's an emotional drain for sure, not to mention a financial drain on the parents.

Like I said, I know it is my duty as a physician do everything in my power to keep a patient alive, and I will do that wholeheartedly - I just don't want to end up a slave to any offspring I produce with conditions that are incompatible with life for which medicine can offer no acceptable end.

In other news, still doing bacteriophage research. My medical Spanish classes have picked up again, so we're practicing those and we have our practicals next week. The trip to Bolivia is essentially ready, though I still need to get all my vaccinations...mental note: call the travel center. OMM is going well, I suppose - we're learning the high velocity, low amplitude techniques (the cracking techniques). I've had mixed success with them, so I definitely need more practice. Thank goodness we don't need to make an audible crack for it to be 'treated' - otherwise I don't know how we could get anything to treat during a practical after we've been practicing on each other for days.

Still working on balancing personal life with school, but everything's a work in progress these days... Now for the joy of computer games!

Spring Break

Hooray for spring break and being done with blocks exams for the time being. I ended up going to Monterey for a week, and then down to San Diego for the remainder of the passover time we have off. I have done essentially no medicine-related stuff all break - a welcome change and break for my brain. Looks like we get to start out with venipuncture and the respiratory system next block. Makes sense, as we just covered the cardiovascular system. It should be interesting.

In other news, we're needing to raise some money for the Bolivia trip (as in, get money to buy supplies for the hospital, mobile unit, and for the impoverished down there). I'll be returning to my research soon enough, and want to exercise a bit more so I'll join in the weekly karate class and do pilates on the side. I also got a LASIK checkup and my eyes are still healing perfectly and there are no complications. I also need to start making my own food more often - as much as I like letting my parents cook everything, sometimes I really prefer my own cooking. Anyhow, back to enjoying the last couple days of leisure that I have...

Spring Semester, Block 2

Next week is our second block of exams for spring semester - it will mainly focus on the heart and related diseases. So...that includes hypertension, angina, valve disorders, congestive heart failure, arrhythmias, pericarditis, cardiomyopathy, etc. AND their pathologies, drugs, treatments, and more. Fun times...over a hundred drugs to learn, again. There's some OMM stuff to learn in there as well, specifically tender points and some cranial technique theory. I'm interested to learn cranial - supposedly it's really good for headaches (among other things...). Here is the first 1/4 I have completed of my study board:

Today is St. Patrick's day, so it won't be long before we medical students, once again, imbibe alcohol and kill our livers and brains counter to the advice we're required to give our patients. I guess alcohol isn't quite as bad as the McDonald's lunch I had, but hey, my BMI is 21, my system can take a few hits for the greater good. (Hears Dr. Clearfield's voice in my head..."Even people in their 20's, who look perfectly healthy, can have early and even middle-stage coronary artery disease and atheromas in their arteries"...oooooo...scary).

More and more, I realize how much I want to specialize in Infectious Disease. The fact that the thought of a lecture on anything related to bacteria, viruses, fungi, or parasites is enough to brighten my week is sure sign enough. I'm really amazed at how little surgery or other superspecialties appeal to me - cardiology? Meh. ER? Nah. Surgery? Too many hours standing over someone's guts while nurses wipe sweat off your face. I have the hand dexterity, focus, and attention to detail to be a surgeon, as I've been told many times, but it just holds no interest. Gimmie someone with a bug in them! I'm going to send a letter to an Infectious Disease DO to see about shadowing - as much as I love infectious diseases, I know very little about what an ID specialist would actually DO. Hopefully I'll mail that out and hear from her soon!

Fun and the Future

Even with so much to do, medical students can still have a little fun. The last weekend I went to a house party, with drinking and silly stuff, then to a shooting range, then a BBQ and a turkey dinner, and then played computer games all night. It's nice to know that we can kick back occasionally, but we better enjoy it now, because it's going to get a lot worse. The number of drugs we need to memorize is steadily adding up - I wish I knew them all as well as I know drugs like tylenol or omeprazole, typical OTC drugs that I've known about most of my life.

We're getting into hypertension lectures, angina, coronary artery disease (CAD), congestive heart failure (CHF) and similar problems. It's funny, with all the talk about eating healthy, and how CAD can be seen as early as in teenagers or people in their twenties - the food I'm craving the most right now is fast food. I haven't craved it in ages, but here we are.

Every so often, the curriculum at our school throws in a "Managing Stress" class, where we are told ways to deal with stress, as well as the kinds of stress we are going to encounter (which of course gives us a lot of stress right then and there). Today, the doctor teaching the class was talking about how the first two years of medical school are a breeze compared to third and fourth years when you begin your clinical rotations and have to use whole different sets of skills (communcation versus booksmarts). Then she went on to say you think rotations are bad, wait til residency - where there will be hallways or stairwells essentially devoted to hiding and crying when your attending shouts the crap out of you. I imagine something like Dr. Cox from Scrubs, except no one is laughing. She then added how even then, you start your internship somewhere and it's just as bad - with more power comes more responsibility, which comes with more and more work. It's like being spider man except that everyone knows where you live and you're expected to work 16 hours straight.

As she talked about us being on rotations or in residencies, I couldn't help picturing how some of my classmates would be during rotations - getting picked on by the attending, or stepping into a patient room with an air of authority and asking them what the problem is and trying to help. Now that I know more about a doctor's thought processes, and my classmates' strengths and weaknesses, it is hard to picture myself as a patient of theirs - putting my problem in their hands and trusting their judgment. Though, in my mind at least, I always picture my classmates looking very proper, professional, and knowledgeable in these situations. I suppose that means I have a good amount of respect for my peers as future physicians and human beings (well, most of them - there's always a couple you wouldn't want as your doctor). Hopefully I'll pull everything together and become as awesome a physician as I picture most of my peers becoming.

Studying, Advocating, Consoling...so much to do

Well, spring semester has been coming on fast and furious - been extremely busy. Have also had tests every other week, essentially, and our first Block exams of the semester are next week. We have had two standardized patient encounters with our small group - where we must take histories and perform a physical exam. It's amazing the things you notice yourself and your classmates doing when interacting with patients - strengths and weaknesses, the importance of listening... We have also practiced doing SOAP note write-ups (subjective, objective, assessment, plan) and worked on differential diagnoses. The ailments of the patients are in line with what we are learning, so we can apply what we learn clinically.

Tomorrow we get to explore a new aspect of the physician-patient relationship - breaking bad news. We will have 12 minutes to break bad news to a standardized patient who has been trained on how to react convincingly to the news, including shouting or crying. We will be faced with one of these: a son whose father unexpectedly died, a woman with a suspicious breast lump who needs a biopsy, a man with inoperable pancreatic cancer, a childless woman who just had a miscarriage, and a man with an STD from an affair. Should be interesting and nerve-wracking - but I imagine it will be more difficult for some of my colleagues than for me. Working in the lab, I definitely got to deal with very angry patients, and one woman I drew as a trainee had just learned her husband was going to die - that was a difficult one. You really don't know what to say to a stranger who suddenly starts crying, especially when they're still holding back so much pain and you know almost nothing about their situation. I almost cried myself that time - but sometimes all you can do is squeeze a person's hand to let them know you're there with them, even if it's for just a moment. I'm usually someone who insists on a 3 foot personal space bubble and never hugs people unless they're family (and even then not so much), but somehow I was able to recognize that at that moment, she really needed to feel physically that someone was there with her. If you're really with them, and not just going through the motion, time almost seems to stand still for you both in a good, or at least meaningful, way. They say, "You can touch patients during a bad news situation if you think they would be okay with it," and you kind of wonder, "How will I know if they would be okay with it?" Well, that was one of those moments, and I could definitely tell even with no experience - though my rule is that if in doubt, it's better NOT to touch.

On a more positive note, last Thursday we were bussed by the Osteopathic Physicians and Surgeons of California (OPSC) to the state capitol to speak with assembly members and fellows about the recent merger between the Doctor of Osteopathy and Doctor of Naturopathy boards. Essentially, bill AB X4 20 merged the boards because the governor wanted to make it look like he was cleaning up the government - busting excess bureaucracy and saving money. However, both our boards are funded by those in the profession, no tax money is involved, and they approve licenses as well as oversee malpractice issues. NDs do not prescribe medications without supervision (and even then, no category 2 drugs) nor do they perform surgeries - so having them oversee us, or even have us oversee them, is not fair to either profession. I was the designated group leader to the assembly member whose fellow we spoke to because apparently I live within the district (14). Definitely nerve wracking, but everyone seemed to think I made a very eloquent case. The fellow we spoke to seemed very supportive of our cause. One of the senators (Lee) has submitted two goldenrod bills to his boss for approval, which we need in order to get numbers on them, support, and signatures. It was really enlightening to see how the process works in state government, and that people in the offices actually will listen to you and you can make a difference. We also got to speak to one of the governor's aids right before he was going to a meeting with Mr. Schwarzenegger himself, with the promise of at least mentioning the issue with him, so that was exciting. There were a bunch of school children outside of the governor's offices as we walked in and they were all asking us to say "Hi" to the governor for them, ask for more money for schools, it was adorable. All in all, a very exciting day - here we all are in front of the capitol building!

Also, on one final note, the founder of Touro University, Bernard Lander, last night at the age of 94. All the Touro campuses were closed out of respect. I don't really know what to say about it, as I never met him or knew much about him before now, but I am kind of wondering how it will affect the universities. At the least, I was productive and used the day to get more caught up on classes.